LOVES!!!

only you..

can make me this happy..
a whole different kind of happiness..

miss and will always love you..
deep down..
you know that..


it will always be beating for you.


slept.dreamt.you.

BEING GAY!!!

my title?..
dont be mistaken ok..
lol


this week i consider myself as a gay boy..
it all started with me making a joke about one of my friend is gay..
and told my mother that how i love being....

ermmmm...around him i should say..
lol

in and out..
HAHAHAHAHAHA..

she believed it and keep on going about it..

'ah john arh..dont do this kind of thing'
'ah john arh..i still want to carry cucu'

and i replied..

'i adopt lar'..
hahaha...

it was bare funny and i told her how i love being more feminine..
i was acting all soft and stuff and it bothered her so much..lol..
keep on wanting to try her clothes and stuff..

but yesterday..
was the gayest..
lol

me and my mates where bothering this gay guy online..
and i have to be the gay went..

that guy told me that how much he loves to see me naked and stuff..
that he would really love to get down right dirty with me..
i have to keep my cool but i was like...

WHAT THE FUCKING %$^&$&$*$%^@$!@#!$#$@ DISGUSTING FUCKING GAY DICK!!!

but who could blame him right..
=)
yea...LAUGH lar!!!!...=.=
dont deny the truth..

and yea..he showed his wiener on the webcam..
its like watching planet of the apes...
hairy as..well..like i said..its like watching planet of the apes..lol..

i was bare disgusted that i forgot to take a picture of it...
but seriously..it will just give u nightmares..
u dont want to have a 'BUSHY' dream do you..

after all this..i was like..
what the fuck i had just done?..
lol..

well..at least i made someone get all..you know the feeling..
hahahaha..

these were the pictures that turned him on..
kena pose gay gay a bit lar..
lol

gay fuck : do you work out?

me : yes

gay fuck : i really love to see you working out.

me: does it turn you on?..i sweat alot..

gay: that is a plus for me you sweet little thing.

me : awww you freak..

gay : i am not a freak. its just like covering in lube. all slippery and shinny.

gay fuck : i am so jealous.

me : about wad?

gay fuck : your tongue.

me : y?

gay fuck : it gets to be in your mouth.

MAH CHOW HAI!!!!!

lol...
whole body was shaking after that..
fucking disgusted..
i just told him that im having a threesome with my friends now and told him to fuck off...
hahaha...

and what he replied..

gay fuck : =( can you turn on your webcam?

for the record..
im freaking straight..

JOHN CHUA WEE HAN IS STRAIGHT!!!!!!

STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!

finals is coming..
and im quite impress with myself..
been studying 6 days straight..
and not for 30 - 60 mins..
this time im banging 5-6 hours..
its hard to start but once i start i realize i could go on for a LONG LONG time..
hey,
give me credit ok..
its damn good for me already..
=)
hehe..

GOOD LEH!!..=)..

a day of revision here equals to half a year i should say in malaysia?..
lol..
not even joking man..
well..its time to be more real..
everything is becoming more real to me now..
and nothing comes easy innit?..


well,
its good to have my parents around..
especially my mom to say..
get to eat GOOD home cooked food..
usually i only eat like 2 meals a day but..
with my mom around im banging 3-4 meals..
with 2nd round of rice on the plate..
lol..

and my dad..
oh well..
his presences always pressure me to study..
thats a positive..

what else,
urmmm...
been hitting the gym..
working out and doing some boxing..

nak body mar..kena lar exercise kan?..

or not ill be a fucking fat pig or KEEGAN!!!..especially with my mother around..
hehe..
chilling lar brotha..
gurau je..
u still look sexy..=)..
*vomit*

aduh..not small enough..=)..


other than that..
cant wait to go back..
another 34 more days..
=)



its been a while now..
but i still do have the feelings..
it could never ever fade i guess..
everything i do reminds me of you..
not a single day that it does not happen..
in a way, its not really that sad anymore..
just that when it happens..
it brings back all the happy things..
which will always be the best thing that has ever happened..
all the time with you,
i know that it will only mean good things..
your will always be that melody i hear..
peace,smooth,loving..rough at times..=)..but..
i will keeping playing it all over and over again..

a bump i hit..
but that wont stop me..
my heart will always be beating for you..
despite what other people might say,
i still,

love you with all my heart..
and no one can change that..

miss u..

27.12.08

comfort.safe.manje =).tickle.warm.loved.hugs.kissies.mMmmMmMm..and it goes on and on..


=)

SO CLOSE!!!

mom and dad arriving tomorrow..
been cleaning the flat and my pig sty..
fucking room full of cigg box and 'other' stuff..

havent been doing much lately..
time to get serious for finals which is in 5 weeks..
cant wait for the 21st of may..
business exam in the morning and flying back at night..

see you guys real soon..


haha..
something i find funny while looking through my pictures..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

dear pillow,
still wishing you are..
always will..
l and m you..


=)

CAFE DE PARIS!!!

yesterday,
all my trouble seem so far away..
there's a shadow..EH FUCK!!..lyrics plak..

yesterday..

went clubbing kat cafe de paris with sisters and cousins...
and saul and harry who are me friend from uk..
me closest friend to say..
others all dickhead childish bastards..
hehe..

i realize that some of u guys never seen them before..
NAH!!!..

pictures...

aduh..
i hate this part right here..(uploading pictures)

WHITEY(saul) and CHING(john)

harry and me..

whiskey!!!..=)

the club did put on some performance..WELL..hehe..
yeap..that kind of performance..
whatelse..
DUHHHHH!!!

with some of this..

she used to have some clothes..haha..

'stop looking at my ARSE!!!'

showered in JACK DANIELS!!!!..

those are not her tits..its tape..obviously..SPIT-FIRE..

DONE.

more on facebook..

=)

MAHATIR!!!

its not APRIL FOOL!!..

KAT MALAYSIA X JUMPE..KAT SINI JUMPE...

i really went and saw our old prime minister talk..
fucking hell it was boring..
slept at some parts..
and most of the people who attended were law students..
so..
imagine where i stand out...

the fella made jokes about singapore and malaysia whatever shitpot..
submarine lar this and that lar..
which was funny to others but not to me..
didn really get it..
but when he said something that wasnt suppose to be a joke,

i PLAk ketawa..
HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!..

well..
thats JOHN CHUA WEE HAN..
=)

the whole point of the talk was about Israel and the Palestine who are being harass by the Israeli at the moment..
saw video clips of children and women being shot..

FUCK ISRAEL

imagine..
a 5 month year old baby being crush by a tank..
5 MONTHS!!!
and a women being shot after raising the white flag..

like Mahatir said..

'killing is a crime'
'war is about massive killing'
'if someone kill one person,that is a crime..but thousands of people,that is not a crime'

killing killing killing...

the fella keep talking about killing i pun tido dah..
but at one point i was the only one who laugh..=.=''..
cause i thought about ACHMED THE DEAD TERRORIST

'I KILL YOU'


ACHMED THE DEAD TERRORIST
watch this..

last day of school tomorrow..
3 weeks break..
OOOWEYYYYYYYY!!!..

=)

PROMISE!!!

its been ages since my last post..

well, loads of things has been going on that i was not in the mood to blog..
but i made a promise not to leave my blog to die..

so..

TOUCH GLOVES AND COME OUT FIGHTING!!!

its been hell but..chin up and focus on what is coming..

last week of school and its easter for 3 weeks,
6 weeks away from exams,

and

7 weeks away from catching a flight back to Malaysia..
things will be different but i have you guys..
really appreciate u guys during that time..
its not all shooting stars..

but every moments matter till the very last bit..
i wish i could be..
its all love..

wish you all the best over there..
make yourself proud..
i know you will..


always here

=)